whoa. ytd ps' class was really long. tho it was getting dry towards d end, but i know there surely is something that i can learn from it.
i went back to church to load in ppt for JSS. helped out with JSS stuff and prayed. prayer was awesome. God was constantly putting prayer points in me to pray. after that we went to KFC. something happened and i was really upset. but my oikos members- Bryan, Zac, Weekiat, David and Kaiming cheered me up. with all those match making qns. it was really hilarious, the stuffs they asked and all. they want to match make me and WK. =X me and him now jus buddy buddy.. at least im trying. haha.
after that Bryan wanted to go Mac so we went and ended up camwhoring, not me la, but the rest. haha. me and seesoon were like talking crap behind.
im confused. who am i really? does love really exist between church friends?
last but not least, i would like to wish Cheryl Chong:
HAPPY
BLESSED
BIRTHDAY.
(sorry for making u cry if i was the cause of it, coz honestly, i wasnt scolding you)
I HOPE THAT GOD WILL USE YOU MIGHTILY IN HIS KINGDOM AND I PRAY THAT HE WILL PRESERVE YOU AND BLESS YOU. :)
Saturday, September 26, 2009
Friday, September 25, 2009
hmm, my works will be put to display for sale at iluma.
will be setting up on monday and tuesday. hmm. i hope i am able to sell at least 1 work. haha.
yes, u are right. if I carry on like, the friendship will be nothing. but i would like to correct you, it is if we carry on like this, the friendship will be nothing. it takes 2 hands to clap. i am assuming my part of the responsibility of the friendship. dun try to shirk yours. friendship works both ways. i hope this friendship will work out well after the talk. i really do not wish to drag it any longer not because im impatient, but because i know the longer it takes to start mending the friendship, the more difficult it will be to mend the friendship. because we will be hurting each other with our words.
will be setting up on monday and tuesday. hmm. i hope i am able to sell at least 1 work. haha.
yes, u are right. if I carry on like, the friendship will be nothing. but i would like to correct you, it is if we carry on like this, the friendship will be nothing. it takes 2 hands to clap. i am assuming my part of the responsibility of the friendship. dun try to shirk yours. friendship works both ways. i hope this friendship will work out well after the talk. i really do not wish to drag it any longer not because im impatient, but because i know the longer it takes to start mending the friendship, the more difficult it will be to mend the friendship. because we will be hurting each other with our words.
Monday, September 21, 2009
unscrew my screw up life
lessons learnt @ youth ytd.
what does God wan from us, in return?
nothing much actually.
1) God wants us to love Him
2)God wants us to serve Him
3)God wants us to trust Him
4)God wants us to seek Him
very simple, but what Amanda shared is really back to basics and if our basics/foundation is not strong, then we will fall ultimately.
oh God, unscrew my screwed up life please. i jus want to get my life into order. perhaps i really need to think things thru. have a time of thinking and really reflect what i have done/acheived for God in the past 5 years in BC. i have grown, yes but i have not rised up to be who GOD called me to be. Melody, its time to wake up and stop gg ard in circles. stop wasting time and jus... rise up to be a mature person. stop all those running around, chasing joel seah and jumping. be like a mature 20 year old. for God's sake, and for yours. be a mature 20year old!
what does God wan from us, in return?
nothing much actually.
1) God wants us to love Him
2)God wants us to serve Him
3)God wants us to trust Him
4)God wants us to seek Him
very simple, but what Amanda shared is really back to basics and if our basics/foundation is not strong, then we will fall ultimately.
oh God, unscrew my screwed up life please. i jus want to get my life into order. perhaps i really need to think things thru. have a time of thinking and really reflect what i have done/acheived for God in the past 5 years in BC. i have grown, yes but i have not rised up to be who GOD called me to be. Melody, its time to wake up and stop gg ard in circles. stop wasting time and jus... rise up to be a mature person. stop all those running around, chasing joel seah and jumping. be like a mature 20 year old. for God's sake, and for yours. be a mature 20year old!
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
Hongy...
actually i realised...
why i treasure my friendship with hong so much.
because we hv gone thru alot tgt, encouraging one another, teasing one another, went thru pains tgt. and yet the friendship is still gg strong. that is why this friendship is d one and only exception that have withstand and gone thru the test of time and that's why when we dun spend time tgt very often, we know each other still cares for the other. hey, that's a very special thing that keeps the friendship gg ya noe?
that's why when i see her cry, my heart aches. becoz she is a friend who have cheered me up and really make me peng with her lame jokes.
all my other friends, drifting furthur away each day. hoon and jean.
jus din understand why jean had to say that of me to small val. is our years of friendship/quarrels and acc partner not compared to jus these few months of knowing small val?
and hoon... you're an awesome friend. why do u want to let a few misunderstandings affect this friendship?why? and do u know this long delayed talk is doing damage to this friendship?
right now, only my frenship with hong is gg strong. hong, lets jiayou tgt okie?
why i treasure my friendship with hong so much.
because we hv gone thru alot tgt, encouraging one another, teasing one another, went thru pains tgt. and yet the friendship is still gg strong. that is why this friendship is d one and only exception that have withstand and gone thru the test of time and that's why when we dun spend time tgt very often, we know each other still cares for the other. hey, that's a very special thing that keeps the friendship gg ya noe?
that's why when i see her cry, my heart aches. becoz she is a friend who have cheered me up and really make me peng with her lame jokes.
all my other friends, drifting furthur away each day. hoon and jean.
jus din understand why jean had to say that of me to small val. is our years of friendship/quarrels and acc partner not compared to jus these few months of knowing small val?
and hoon... you're an awesome friend. why do u want to let a few misunderstandings affect this friendship?why? and do u know this long delayed talk is doing damage to this friendship?
right now, only my frenship with hong is gg strong. hong, lets jiayou tgt okie?
Monday, September 14, 2009
a fun day
today was really fun. i met val and vera for cycling at ECP. we went to eat at the lagoon there. wah, super hot. and we cycled for 2 hours. vera wanted to continue, but me and val said: you want you go yourself. we are staying here. HAHAHA. and we slacked awhile, played concentration. they cldnt make me lose. LOL. so we played chop chilli chop. den we proceeded to carl's jr. VERA took the wrong tea! WAHAHAHAHAHA... den we cycled back to the bic kiosk... den took bus to their aunt's hse. after that met hong, cheryl and aunty christine at S21. den go NTUC buy stuffs. yes! tmr they coming over to swim den val is gonna cook spaghetti. hmm. these 2 sisters really makes me laugh. the way they talk and everything.. hehe.. makes me just keep laughing.. really funny...
today was really tired. but i enjoyed it fully ttm! :D
today was really tired. but i enjoyed it fully ttm! :D
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
escape
i actually did not wan to go for pnp last nite.
wanted to keep myself busy, but actually i was escaping and avoiding.
i am escaping from my very good friend, Alice.
i find myself avoiding her time and again, yet at times, i can scold myself for softening my heart towards her.
i'm really troubled. i finally had the courage to bring this up to Amanda, for i feared i cannot outtalk her. and i think it is a load off my chest. but somehow i feel troubled. i felt troubled maybe because 1) i am jealous 2) because i am told my Amanda what is right and yet i see my good friend not doing it. and still saying: we are just friends. cmon i used the same tactic on Amanda and the other leaders. U think they believe? haha, don think so. well, i guess, we do need to talk. and really clarify misunderstandings that have led this friendship to wht it is right now. most of the time now, we are jus hurting one another with our words. and i know, words can kill. sigh.
i really wished for the talk to be soon. i know i want, i know Amanda is trying. but i dunno bout her. she seems to be sucha busy person that she forgets bout me. well maybe i am not important in her life, well that's fine. because i do not deserve to be important in her life.
but i dun think i ever will forget this friendship. far too important to me. You and Hong and Sophia. people who not only taught me what love is, but showed what love is all about. so thank you.
but for now, i am gg to be busy because i choose to. because i know why. i am escaping and avoiding. i do not wish to think bout this friendship till we talk with Amanda.
i wana give myself a break, something i wana be busy with. because i choose to.
wanted to keep myself busy, but actually i was escaping and avoiding.
i am escaping from my very good friend, Alice.
i find myself avoiding her time and again, yet at times, i can scold myself for softening my heart towards her.
i'm really troubled. i finally had the courage to bring this up to Amanda, for i feared i cannot outtalk her. and i think it is a load off my chest. but somehow i feel troubled. i felt troubled maybe because 1) i am jealous 2) because i am told my Amanda what is right and yet i see my good friend not doing it. and still saying: we are just friends. cmon i used the same tactic on Amanda and the other leaders. U think they believe? haha, don think so. well, i guess, we do need to talk. and really clarify misunderstandings that have led this friendship to wht it is right now. most of the time now, we are jus hurting one another with our words. and i know, words can kill. sigh.
i really wished for the talk to be soon. i know i want, i know Amanda is trying. but i dunno bout her. she seems to be sucha busy person that she forgets bout me. well maybe i am not important in her life, well that's fine. because i do not deserve to be important in her life.
but i dun think i ever will forget this friendship. far too important to me. You and Hong and Sophia. people who not only taught me what love is, but showed what love is all about. so thank you.
but for now, i am gg to be busy because i choose to. because i know why. i am escaping and avoiding. i do not wish to think bout this friendship till we talk with Amanda.
i wana give myself a break, something i wana be busy with. because i choose to.
Monday, September 7, 2009
updates
a few weeks back, God placed within my heart towards intercession and prayer.
ytd, jon preached abt dreams. yes, some of my dreams had be diminished or dead.
and ytd, my 2 dreams revived.
1) to be an anointed guitarist who will play for God, who will bring down God's presence
2) to be an intercessor, to be a fighting warrior.
so i've decided to pray for the youth and keep the youth leaders in prayers. thank you leaders for being so willling to walk with us, run the race with us. you guys love us, so do we. :)
that unforgettable memeory, etched in my mind is like a conviction for life. this was what stopped me by doing things that i used to really struggle with. tho i do struggle with it stil, but that memory etched taught me not to do it. thank you mentor, thank you amanda. for being that support for me. i love you.
ytd, jon preached abt dreams. yes, some of my dreams had be diminished or dead.
and ytd, my 2 dreams revived.
1) to be an anointed guitarist who will play for God, who will bring down God's presence
2) to be an intercessor, to be a fighting warrior.
so i've decided to pray for the youth and keep the youth leaders in prayers. thank you leaders for being so willling to walk with us, run the race with us. you guys love us, so do we. :)
that unforgettable memeory, etched in my mind is like a conviction for life. this was what stopped me by doing things that i used to really struggle with. tho i do struggle with it stil, but that memory etched taught me not to do it. thank you mentor, thank you amanda. for being that support for me. i love you.
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