youth camp

i'm finally back from youth camp.
somehow, i been set free frm my sins.
somehow, i thought that there was reconciliation between me and her, it turned out, my presence only made her feel worst. oh God, i pray you'll help her. i pray you walk thru this with her.
i knew God was there, but somehow could not really experience Him. i felt like something was holding me back. we had sessions and i knew God wanted to deal with that part of my life. he did. i mustered up courage to tell pastor mark and muiteck. it took alot of me to do this. ALOT. i jus hope that they will not see me as a different person. or condemn me.

i felt that they were overboard. i felt that they were ganging up against people they dun like. i felt that they were mean. yet, i cant do anything. sigh.

my birthday.

ytd was a horrible day.
it was my birthday. it was supposed to be happy, but im not.
im really sorry... your sister made me see the point. i realised my wrong. thanks for forgiving me, my dear. thanks for everything. and sorry for everything.
christmas dinner at muiteck's was fun. her nephew is cute. and her mom is sweet. i eneded up washing the plates and bowls n utensils. coz i felt like playing with water. lol.. den we exchanged presents.. i took this bread frm action city. but i changed it with hoon.. lol...
" surprise" birthday cake... i was like so "surprised" hahahahahaha...

crap

i'm alrd tired enough.
i believe u are too.
here am i trying to curb my temper, u jolly well do that too.
i daren't say that bout myself, if u read my previous post, but heck, how many actually knows this stupid blog of mine. not many i would say...
it's high time u stop your sarcasm. coz its getting me on my nerves.

who are u, actually? get me outta your face? n get your sister to shut up too.stop irritating me when im tired. now, go away.

crap. im on medicine. glue ear's what the doc said, tmr i gotta go and get that damn fluid out of my ear. but heck, anw. im busying...
musical prac
carolling
youth camp
100 sketches for drawing
14 skerches for figure
my undone oil painting on canvas.
God help me.

busy busy... like a bee..

gonna be busy busy busy..
musical pracs, carolling, camp.
gonna be tired out, but i know, it's all worth it. =)

what did i do to deserve such a friend like you?
NOTHING. absolutely nothing..
a friend who stood by me, a friend who still remained a friend even when i was mean.
crap. melody, u should stop it.. you really should. she doesn't deserve such a friend like you.
begin to put your words into actions. stop making things difficult for her... start to love her in actions.. it's enough. melody, it's really enough. she is a thing of your past, present and future. she will be. just because she is frm your past does not mean she deserves such a treatment. i know you're fearful. i know that you cannot get over your past. but move on. it is time to move on. those who has hurt you cant hurt you anymore. she has always been that faithful friend. move on gal. stop thinking of the past and move on. you owe her more than just a big sorry. move on with her as your best friend. know that she will never intentionally hurt you. trust her, alright?

and what makes you think that i aint doing anything?
come on. stop imposing your positions in BB in church.
coz BB and church has different ways of doing things..
and seriously, whatever it is, dun try to piss me off.
i'm looking for the props and you're telling me that im not doin anything??
pls, check your facts first.
now im beginning to think, what values BB is teaching.
dun try to be a male chauvinist in front of me. seriously.

standing firm

are leaders supposed to discourage?
i mean, to tell me straight in the face that that may not be my calling after i've been pursuing that for so many years, come on, they are just basing it on the fact that they're not seeing any fruits.
i asked God.
1st confirmation: stand firm.
2nd confirmation: stand for what u believe in, even if it means standing alone. (what amanda said to be previously which i kinda forgot)
3rd confirmation: persevere
i asked God yet again. but why is it that no fruits are seen? He gave me an illustration of the wine. the wine will taste best if it is given time. so will i. my dear leaders.
but i'm saying that even IF that is not my gifting, i still want to be a musician and i will do what it takes, even if it means sleepless nights. i am not being arrogant here, but i'm saying, that i'm not gonna give up pursuing what God has placed in my heart.
it's either u support me or u dun.
however, i will still respect and obey your authority, because i know that God placed you guys in my life for a purpose.

happy!

i not only got friendship reconciled, i got a band!
bryan- guitar
melody-keyboard
zac-bass
sam- drums
kee meng n gwen- vocals.
michelle lim- back up keyboardist

cool right?? :)

thank bryan manz... for carrying the 10kg amp plus the heavy electric guitar. all the way frm lor melayu to lor marzuki.. lol... poor u..

mich's hse was cool... we kinda jammed there.. hahaha... took some photos.. cool shit. mich, u are cool...

i got a new phone. out of all my phones this is the coolest shit ever. it's samusung touchscreen. lol..

imma happy person now... i love my life, i love my God, i love my frens, i love my family.. most of all, im a blessed creation! xD

cool week.

today will be the day i start on my work since last wk was jammed packed.
wed-fri- kids camp.
whoo! it melts my heart to see the innocence of kids and seeing them worshipping God coz u know they mean what they're singing. and it really touching to see them receiving the baptism of the holy spirit. whoo... it's exciting manz.

sat-youth
like memorial service like that. sad sad. youth on sat gonna be changed to sun to combine with the sss. but well, i guess it's all for the better of us. we gonna be united. the sss are youths too.

sun- caroling prac then cycling followed by sleepover.
caroling practices sucks without the pple. val, hong, stan, jean, hoon,gordon, vera, charissa. come back leh! caroling is like so sucky now...
cycling was uber cool... i went with zen, zoey, james, atwell and kearney. LOL.it was fun... i realised aunty samantha and uncle donald is uber cool parents... before we slept, we prayed...
poor kearney... zen talked to him till late.. he woke up the latest.

monday- cyclin again!
only i cycled. i tried blading but comedy.
Melody was bladin down a slight slope and cld not stop.zoey was like asking her to brake. then atwell stood in front of her and tried to stop her. imagine atwell's weight and melody's weight. hahaha.. we both fell and atwell was like " my leg my leg!" LOL.

so today will be chionging and chionging... later got guitar lesson. really thk patrick. he doen't even want lunch.. good teacher man. hehe... i got fate with the adults wor.. they adore me. heehee...