youth camp

i'm finally back from youth camp.
somehow, i been set free frm my sins.
somehow, i thought that there was reconciliation between me and her, it turned out, my presence only made her feel worst. oh God, i pray you'll help her. i pray you walk thru this with her.
i knew God was there, but somehow could not really experience Him. i felt like something was holding me back. we had sessions and i knew God wanted to deal with that part of my life. he did. i mustered up courage to tell pastor mark and muiteck. it took alot of me to do this. ALOT. i jus hope that they will not see me as a different person. or condemn me.

i felt that they were overboard. i felt that they were ganging up against people they dun like. i felt that they were mean. yet, i cant do anything. sigh.