standing firm

are leaders supposed to discourage?
i mean, to tell me straight in the face that that may not be my calling after i've been pursuing that for so many years, come on, they are just basing it on the fact that they're not seeing any fruits.
i asked God.
1st confirmation: stand firm.
2nd confirmation: stand for what u believe in, even if it means standing alone. (what amanda said to be previously which i kinda forgot)
3rd confirmation: persevere
i asked God yet again. but why is it that no fruits are seen? He gave me an illustration of the wine. the wine will taste best if it is given time. so will i. my dear leaders.
but i'm saying that even IF that is not my gifting, i still want to be a musician and i will do what it takes, even if it means sleepless nights. i am not being arrogant here, but i'm saying, that i'm not gonna give up pursuing what God has placed in my heart.
it's either u support me or u dun.
however, i will still respect and obey your authority, because i know that God placed you guys in my life for a purpose.